It's official....

I'm being a lazy bum today. So I thought I write something...

Well, it's official. Official since Sunday. I did pretty good I should say. Not really jumping into it too quick, had time to think and see. Almost a week, and it feels amazing. I actually met a guy who's just like me, scary yet awesome. It's like I'm dating myself but a man and much more cuter then I am. His personality is awesome, I love it. I see potential in him. I really hope this lasts. I'm tired of games, all the cheating and the lying. He makes me happy. He does little things that aren't necessary just to please me, it's adorable. Little things do please me sometimes, little things that are good. I guess that's part of being a mom, little things that your child does and all you can do is smile and be amazed at how smart your child is. I can't wait to meet his little girl, Cici. She looks so cute in her pictures, I'm excited. Hope her and Cameron get along well! I have trust issues and I feel like I can start trusting again. I can talk to him about anything, whatever is bothering me and even if it's silly. I love that. I love how I can be myself. I hope this will last like I said. I don't know what else to say. He's wonderful. I'm awesome, lol. I really like him. I see potential, and a long-term thing happening with him. "I got myself a good catch!", I think that's what he said. I think so too.

This is my shortest blog ever. My mind's all over the place. =).

This is how my fresh new beginning starts..........

I have decided to start a new beginning for the 10th billionth time, but hoping this time it's final. Got my goal set. School in progress. Work in progress. Just need to change a few things. Settle down and get my baby back. I got the bad out of my life and now in with the good. Finally there's been progress of change, good change, and stupid me does something like this.. This is how it all began..

Got the bum out on Wednesday. Parent's are happy, I'm getting there, still cooping with no one sleeping in my living room.. =|. Got my grades up in school, mom was really proud of me that I got a 94% on my exam for bookkeeping. That shit is frustrating!!!!! I'm glad I did well, and I have to do another part of bookkeeping, ugh, more frustration. So my overall average of my program is 86%. Then got home, made some calls. One call is for a job, and the other is for my license. I have to call to book a day to go in class. I need to take a class or my license will be suspended.. not good at all. 6 hours in-class and 1 hour driving class. Yep, apparently I'm a bad driver!! I haven't had accidents, I just have a lead foot!!!! Taking baby steps in better my life. Then went with my parents to Canadian Tire. Walked around, shopped a bit, then went out for a smoke while waiting for them. They came out so I decided to help. I took over the cart, put my wallet where the child seat is and.......I forgot about it. I finally realized I forgot my wallet when we got to Woodside. Dad was pissed, I freaked out and almost had a heart attack. So we went back to Canadian Tire, as I got out of the car, I felt my heart leave me. Thank god it was still there!! I know, stupid me, and yes it's the wallet you gave me (you know who you are....sorry!!!). Then back to Woodside we went and then home. My parents are happier now, you can tell, or I know. Came home from school and my mom was cleaning with music on, she rarely clean with music on. Then for dinner we had a BIG dinner. My parents are themselves again, and my brother, still the same jerk but I love him.

So starting a new beginning and I lose my wallet. Isn't it a nice way to start? I have to stop being forgetful! *bangs head* Well, the path to my goal is set, and I've already set foot on it. School and work are in progress and doing well. Just missing my baby and that special someone. I miss feeling loved. Anyways, time for a smoke and then rearrange my area, and my area as in my room (dirty minded people!). Adios amigos! Ciao =)!!

Love rain, but it is troublesome..

Yes, as you all know today was and is raining. I love rain. The feeling of the raindrops when it touches your skin. It is very troublesome though.

Going to school was a pain, especially when I have to go in the morning now. For the next two weeks it's morning classes. I don't mind, because my instructor's pretty cute. Other then that, it's taking the bus. Yesterday was my first day of the morning class. Almost got hit by a bus. I crossed the road on the crosswalk, not the lights, it was clear so I crossed. Bus stopped to let others in, I ran to catch it. Right when I got to the other side, still on the road, the bus driver let go of his brakes and the bus moved. Almost hit me. He stopped and looked at me and just left, didn't even pick me up! After that, almost twisted my ankle by walking on the curb. Waited another 15 mins for the other bus, got to school half an hour late. I don't like that at all. I hate being late! Today was worse. No, I didn't get hit by anything or twisted anything. I left extra early today for school. Got to the bus stop, and exactly 4 buses went by and wouldn't pick me and a few others up. Damn bus was too full. Even when it's not really THAT full, they still didn't stop. I hate that. I was late again. AGAIN!!! Oh well, at least I went to school and didn't ditch, although I was planning it. Tomorrow, I'm going to leave EXTRA early, earlier then I did today, I want to get there early. After school, met up with my best friend, Victoria, who I've known since Grade 7. So met up with her, went to Swiss Chalet, then walked around the mall. It was fun, met another friend, Jenny, who was working today, talked for a long time. Then a commotion happened between a black girl and guy. They were bickering, yelling, yea it was awesome, lol. Everyone stopped and stared, it was like a movie to them, except it's live. All I hear is the black girl yelling "IT'S OVER!", "WE'RE THROUGH!", "!@#$#@!". Yes, all the profanity you want to hear when your kids around. I find it very amusing, hilarious. Now the black guy on the other hand was yelling, but I did not understand a single word he said. Not to be racist or anything, but it's hard to understand black people talk. Some of them sound like they just made up a new language called Gibberish. Wait, is that a language at all, or just gibberish? Do I make any sense at all? Anyway, back to my day, after the commotion we went to PJ's Pet Store. Saw this cute wittle puppy!! I wanted it, if my mom wasn't highly allergic to animal fur, I'd steal it =). After going "ohhh", "awww", "look at that cute puppy/kitten!!", and "I want it!", we went to the food court and waited for a ride back. We saw our high school music teacher, Mr.Sylvester, he's an awesome music teacher, awesome teacher period. We didn't say hi, he was with someone, but it was nice to see him. Then ride came, and we went home. =) The end.

How'd you like my day? Hope you had a great day, or better then mine I suppose. Overall it was an alright day for me, other then coming home with a MASSIVE stomach pain. Can anyone tell me how to post pics up? I want to post the cute wittle puppy on here!! Toddles!!

The Beginning of my blog.....

Well, this is something I haven't done in so long. I've lost interest in writing for while. I don't really know what to write here. I tend to keep them all inside me. I gues this is good, blog out my happiness, anger, sadness, and yea justblog what's on my mind.

I've been very upset lately. So much stress which isn't normal. First of, work. I applied for a job at Medieval Times gift shop area. They said that I was hired but hasn't called me for my start date. I've called them and they never called me back!! I left so many voicemails it's stupid. So now all I can say is fuck em', I'll just look for another part-time. Maybe I'll think about the teaching piano at the Pickering school. Already teaching in Scarborough and I need more students. I rather give private lessons. Anyone interested in learning piano? =P What else have I been stressed about? The list goes on and on. Oh well, I'm not the only one who stresses.

Went downtown last night. It was nice. Met up with a friend. He took me to Chinatown. I haven't been there in ages!! He took me to this anime store which I love!! I actually met a guy who loves anime! It's awesome. We're both almost alike in a way that it scares me, lol. I had fun that night =]. Hope he did too.

What else to say?

I'm doing well in school? Lol. I ran out of things to say for now until next time =].